Fuck it.

I have noting to say, once again..

My mind is blank. 

You know, I miss falling asleep with a smile in my face & waking up the same way. I miss knowing I was the reason for your smile.. Fuck. I just really miss you. You're the only thing on my mind 24/7. 

Eh, fuck it. 

What I have to say doesn't matter anymore. Never did, never will. 

Won't change anything in the end, so fuck it. 

I want to be numb..

Honestly, I have nothing to say. 

Actually, more like speechless... 

Are you happy you hurt me? 

Does it help you sleep better at night knowing I am in pain & trying not to cry myself to sleep like the other nights. 

You know, I haven't been able to sleep good sense the last time we spoke...

Your voice keeps replaying in my head.. 

The memory of you, doesn't leave my lonely mind. Crawling with thoughts of me & you.. 

I don't know what to do.. 

My whole body... Numb. 

To be honest, I don't want to feel anymore... 

I am in too much pain.. No one understands how I am feeling...

I want to die... 

I am not as strong as I used to be... 

My heart, is broken. Into a million little pieces.. 

But you don't care.

You're going with your life... 

Not worrying about mine... 

I Just Don't Know..

Things I have to say; 

I don't know.. 

Sorry...