My best friend is beyond happy now because she's with her old boyfriend that she fall in love with. & I am honestly really happy for them both. I wanted them to get back together before they even broke up. They make each other happy, & that's enough to make me happy. Seeing my best friend smiling & knowing it's not fake.
& then there's me.. Depressed & alone.
I honestly see couples everywhere I go, it's like I can't get away from them. & it makes me sad knowing I don't have someone.. Especially when I know who I want, but I can't have them. It just makes me depressed knowing that we can't be together when we both want to be. & it doesn't help that whenever I am with Lorgia & Devin I just feel alone.. Like I have no one. That's why I always want Eduardo to be with me when I am with them, because I just get sad when he's not. Wishing that he was there with me. So we could be doing all of the cute couple things that their doing, even if we're not a couple..
Yesterday, I was with Devin, Lorgia, Acelynn & Shawn. I was the "fifth wheel" & it honestly made me upset that I was alone while my two best friends had someone.. But I tried my best not to show it. & then when Shawn & Ace left it was just me, Lorgia & Devin like usual. & it got to the point where I asked Devin to take me home. Not just because I was upset, but because I wanted them to have their alone time without me. & Lorgia understood that.
I just couldn't stand being alone..
